I've been feeling down for the past days, so down that I hardly had an appetite. It even reached to the point that smiling was difficult and the urge to break down was so easy. I can still remember what happened that evening, as if my memory keeps replaying it inside my head.
This pain I'm feeling is worse than my past break ups and the reckless accident I had last week (which caused a medium bruise on my left arm). It's the feeling of losing a close dear friend because of a decision that had to be made. I was warned but I couldn't stand seeing them getting hurt anymore. A friend told me if I made the situation last longer, the more painful it will be because of the memories we had together and he was right.
Right now, I feel a big hole in my heart and a wall between us. We might reconcile in the future but there will still be that gap because things won't be the same again. One thing that will hurt even more if he hurts himself (in any way) and decides to resign because of me...
