Forgotten Post

These past few days have been bringing me down to the dumps because of what happened 2 weeks ago. As much as I thought I moved on, (and wanted to) some news just had to show up to pull me down again. Yeah, it shouldn't matter anymore but the fact it happened a few days after the break up, really crushed my heart. I started asking myself "Was I that worthless to be replaced that fast? Did I really mean no value to him?" Those thoughts kept bothering me that it built up inside me for days until the evening I burst into tears after work. Others had no clue what was wrong and as much as I wanted to tell them, I lacked breath to speak and the tears wouldn't stop. I ended up saying all of my feelings to my sister when I got home.

Last Wednesday afternoon, I went through my old blog posts and read each and every one of them. There was a paragraph that mentioned about losing someone. As I was reading it, my eyes started going teary and said to myself "How could I have forgotten about this? This was the talk that made me finally decide to let go of that hurt and lift it up to the Lord. Oh, how I miss attending The Feast every Sunday..." Seeing that post was no coincidence, I am sure God let it happen to remind me that I should forget it, move on and heal from this experience. One friend even told me that even if one guy dumped me, there are other people who love me for who I really am. I admit that I am still hurt but this is just another storm I have to face for the coming brighter days. If I continue to dwell on it, I will surely drown in its flood.

I was scrolling through some photos early this afternoon, and one caught my attention for it showed how it should be now. (I don't know from which manga it is though)

First Anniversary

Oh how time flies, as if it was just a month ago when that day happened. I can still remember how the sky looked that morning as I was brisk walking to the hotel for my internship orientation. Feeling excited yet nervous for whatever may happen on that day. I entered the training room and was happy to see three of the people I became acquainted with during our interview, which meant that they also decided to take their internship in the company. After that day, I felt more excited for my first day in the assigned department and outlet with my batchmate, Carmela. Thus, November 11th of the year 2013 was the beginning of a new adventure for us.

Sunday Morning Rain

I left for work at a quarter to 5 o'clock in the morning. Instead of walking with a cool morning breeze, it was a morning rain. As I was walking along one of the district's main avenues, I felt the urge of crying because I started to remember some happy memories... and maybe because of something I found out last night which hurt me. Although I got hurt by that, my heart feels numb as if I'm already used to it — being replaced. The worse thing about this recent news is the fact I got replaced within a week probably because I went against what that person wanted.